(Watch me pick and chose things to react to and also react to them out of order OH WELL YOU'RE PROBABLY USED TO THIS, YOU RP WITH ME)
Goddddddd sometimes I'm like "I should write a post about my first girlfriend" and then I'm like "I barely remember anything about that except what I've learned NOT TO DO" so then I don't do it. That and doing this is really time-consuming and I'm already bad at time management.
I'm used to falling in and out of friendships, too. My life kind of breaks up easily into chunks defined by where I was and who I was friends with there--different schools, then moving all the way to college, then here to SF, like that. The way some people I know can be friends with their friends for years and years and years kind of boggles me. Half the time they don't even really seem to like their friends that much but either if they broke it off it would make things awful for their other friends or they're just so entrenched in one another's it's unthinkable to end it. The only people I'm really like that with is my immediate family, and I'm pretty happy to be stuck with them.
I never thought about the words thing like that. Some of this stuff I know, or at least think I know sometimes, but that's definitely going to be one I have to think about more. The vast majority of how I interact with people is through text so close reading's always been how I try to pick out what people mean. This is what I was TRAINED TO DO. I probably can't stop. But at least I can have another layer to my thoughts to be like "Asher wait not everybody is a lit major."
Hgh I'm not sure I'm ready to address how I assign too much responsibility to myself in relationships because I'd have to take apart twenty-three years of my life instead of just like seven but I'm willing to concede that it probably all boils down to being a stealth snob and thinking way too highly of myself.
I don't think anyone's trying to make me feel guilty (this time) which is why I've wanted to smack myself two-handed in the face for feeling resentful, but I know at least four people who want more of my time at the moment and who I'm relatively sure I've made feel bad for not wanting to hang out. So I've been like "OKAY MY FAULT NEED TO FIX" at least half of the time and it's really hard for me to say "no" when they want something. Generally I can talk myself around to rationality but then sometimes when I'm talking to them it just springs on me and I have a little tantrum in the corner of my mind.
I don't know. It's totally natural for me to drift or have a little distance but then I don't even know how to deal with people for whom that's THE END OF THE WORLD, WHAT DID THEY DO WRONG, DON'T I LIKE THEM ANYMORE?
Another friend's explained it a little bit to one of them but if they're going to be hurt by a friend circle drifting apart, they're going to be hurt. I understand that. It just stinks, still.
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Goddddddd sometimes I'm like "I should write a post about my first girlfriend" and then I'm like "I barely remember anything about that except what I've learned NOT TO DO" so then I don't do it. That and doing this is really time-consuming and I'm already bad at time management.
I'm used to falling in and out of friendships, too. My life kind of breaks up easily into chunks defined by where I was and who I was friends with there--different schools, then moving all the way to college, then here to SF, like that. The way some people I know can be friends with their friends for years and years and years kind of boggles me. Half the time they don't even really seem to like their friends that much but either if they broke it off it would make things awful for their other friends or they're just so entrenched in one another's it's unthinkable to end it. The only people I'm really like that with is my immediate family, and I'm pretty happy to be stuck with them.
I never thought about the words thing like that. Some of this stuff I know, or at least think I know sometimes, but that's definitely going to be one I have to think about more. The vast majority of how I interact with people is through text so close reading's always been how I try to pick out what people mean. This is what I was TRAINED TO DO. I probably can't stop. But at least I can have another layer to my thoughts to be like "Asher wait not everybody is a lit major."
Hgh I'm not sure I'm ready to address how I assign too much responsibility to myself in relationships because I'd have to take apart twenty-three years of my life instead of just like seven but I'm willing to concede that it probably all boils down to being a stealth snob and thinking way too highly of myself.
I don't think anyone's trying to make me feel guilty (this time) which is why I've wanted to smack myself two-handed in the face for feeling resentful, but I know at least four people who want more of my time at the moment and who I'm relatively sure I've made feel bad for not wanting to hang out. So I've been like "OKAY MY FAULT NEED TO FIX" at least half of the time and it's really hard for me to say "no" when they want something. Generally I can talk myself around to rationality but then sometimes when I'm talking to them it just springs on me and I have a little tantrum in the corner of my mind.
I don't know. It's totally natural for me to drift or have a little distance but then I don't even know how to deal with people for whom that's THE END OF THE WORLD, WHAT DID THEY DO WRONG, DON'T I LIKE THEM ANYMORE?
Another friend's explained it a little bit to one of them but if they're going to be hurt by a friend circle drifting apart, they're going to be hurt. I understand that. It just stinks, still.